Reflections…


Wow. It’s been a while, but I feel like it’s time for an update! It’s crazy to think that this time last year we just finished up a round of IUI – and our hearts were broken just a few days after our sons birthday when my period arrived and our cycle was officially a bust. I remember it like it was yesterday. We had arranged to take our son to the local show (carnival that comes once a year) for his birthday present. And the morning of the show I woke up to blood. I had gotten my period and I knew that our IUI cycle was unsuccessful. I remember how sad and heartbroken I was and how much I just wanted to lay in bed and cry. But I stayed strong for my son and we ventured on to the show. It was an amazing day and I loved seeing his face light up seeing all of the rides and games and excitement for the very first time. I held it together so well that day. But that night I let the tears flow. I kept asking why, why couldn’t this have been it, I just wanted it so bad. I will never forget that feeling. I will never forget the heat of the tears falling down my cheeks and that soundless cry – where your crying so hard but no sound comes out…
As much as that memory is painful it’s also beautiful. Because without that failed cycle I wouldn’t have gone on to have our IVF cycle and I wouldn’t have had my now 6 week old baby girl. I was meant to meet her, she was meant to be mine. We met at exactly the right time in exactly the right way. I was destined to be HER mother!! And every experience in my life lead me to her. 

It’s been a crazy 12 months, failed IUI, many injections and blood tests, tears and stress, successful IVF cycle, crazy 9 months of pregnancy, an amazing 100% drug free birth, and now here we are, my son and my daughter in my arms and I couldn’t feel anymore blessed than I do in this moment. 

So here she is our daughter Sunny Evelyn Munro, born May 12th at 10:46am, weighing in at 4.125kg and 51cm long.


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