Moving forward…

So I just made the dreaded call to our clinic to let them know that the IUI was unsuccessful and that my period had arrived. It was a phone call filled with tears, I was holding myself together so well, I had only cried once – the morning I took the pregnancy test and it was a big fat negative…I knew my period was on its way and we were out for that cycle. I cried my eyes out, that overwhelming silent cry where you gasp for breath…until this phone call. I cried again, I let it all out. The nurse was so sweet and sympathetic, I couldn’t imagine doing her job, the amount of heartache and loss she would see day to day would kill me…but then again all the positive pregnancies and TTC veterans finally getting there baby would maybe be enough to counteract it all out…

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So if we want to go ahead and move on to the next cycle I need to start the pill again on day four of my period (this Wednesday- ironically the day my period was actually meant to be due…) The next IUI will be at the end of August, which is a good surprise considering I thought we would have to wait until September. I’m excited to move forward, I can’t dwell on it forever. We need to take steps forward and believe our next miracle baby is waiting for us. My fertility doctor is on holidays until the 14th of July so I won’t be able to see him for a few weeks, but when he is back we will meet again and come up with the next plan/dates etc…

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Today I am grateful for my friends and family and my son, I am already so blessed and I can never forget that. Last night we had dinner with our best friends and it was a good distraction that we needed. They even bought me ‘Cheer up‘ rainbow cupcakes – hoping that they would bring a ‘ray of sunshine’ to my day. The little things really make a difference to your day and your mood.

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8 thoughts on “Moving forward…

  1. I’m sorry to hear that things didn’t work this cycle, but, as they say in the classics – In the end it will all be okay, if it’s not okay, it’s not the end. Hand in there.

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  2. So sorry to hear this! I hated going through the IUI process. It actually was harder for me than going through IVF believe it or not! I’ve heard a lot of times that the second IUI has better chances of taking than the 1st! So that’s good news!!! Hang in there!!

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  3. I’m so sorry the IUI didn’t work out this cycle. I’m terrified to make this call myself. Trying not to think about it has just led to thinking about it nonstop! Hopefully August is your month!

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